Get It On!

I'm a little late in my posting today because I was mixed about what to write.

*WARNING* Sappy stuff ahead.

I went to bed feeling extremely sappy and lovely last night. theMan had fallen asleep curled up next to me while I read after being tuckered out from a fun weekend with friends. For awhile I just ran my fingers across his face and his back, thinking. You see, this month has been really hard on us. Basically we weren't dealing with our problems and I made some bad decisions on how to pacify myself. Lately I've been noticing I'm not letting myself get too comfortable because I still feel like he's going to leave me at any moment. However, it's times like last night that make me remember what it was like before the bullshit. Peaceful, sweet, cuddly times.

I can't ever make up for what I did or erase the past that got us to that point. If I could, I would, but I can work on this thing we started for the rest of our lives. Hopefully he'll stick around and work too.

Okay Okay, back to rants and porn tomorrow.